Why look through these glassy eyes for a sense of selfless lies?  You try so hard to figure me out, what's really inside of me, can someone please tell me, am I really full of selfless lies am I really saying this or has my body been taking over by another.  I tell myself don't be afraid it's all going to be ok, it's just a dream, maybe I can wake up and forget about it all.  One day, one day everything will be ok.  Do you blame me for the sins inside of me, the sins that I have created, its like a fire built up inside of me, why am I this way,  Do you really know me, do I know myself, I really don't know who I am anymore or why I am here, what's my deal, am I real?  When will I stop denying the truth of my life and give myself a chance to explain and save myself from all the bullshit in my life.  Today is the day that I am going to come clean, yes today is the day, I can see my breath in the brisk cold air floating above, must be a sign that I am all  heated up inside, I need to relieve this anger, it needs to go away, leave me alone, don't come back no more.  What the fuck leave me alone why do you chose to stay, you are not going away why, maybe u will, I really hope so.  Who can relieve me from this, is there really someone that can relieve me from all of this pain and hatred towards everything that's inside of me.  Everything's so deep, so deep down inside of me, hard to get rid of it.  In the end I will chose to defend…..