Today at 2:15GMT my Husky/Wolf was put to sleep. She was known and called effectionatly as Laski

She was only 1 and a half years old and in near perfect health. She was purely the victim of other peoples small mindedness and self-centered bigotry.
I am making this post as a testiment to her.
For those of you who may have seen the program 'Due South' which was aired in the UK over the last several years, you may remember the wolf in the series called Nannuck. For those that havnt seen it, it is about a Canadian Mounty who takes a job with I think the US Police. It is quite good if you get a chance to see it. Well Laski was Nannucks great Grand Daughter. She was a pure white Siberian Husky / Timberland Wolf. Though always nervous around those she was unfamiliar, she was loving, affectionate and as mischevious as they come.
Unfortunatly she has been the subject of victomization by those who live around our cul-de-sac. Purely as a prolonged act of contempt to hurt my family. She was not at fault, just a victim of circumstances. Its sickening.
All of my family have various health problems and some are quite severe. But yet we get victomized for them because people dont understand.

As those who follow the various paths of understanding, growth and living in tune with the universe understand a lot of the world problems throughout history have their roots based in fear. Its a basic human instinct. People fear what they do not understand and attack what they fear. I will now quote Arthur C Clark as I feel it is a profound and important philosophy for people to understand... 'The only thing to fear is fear itself'.

But the months of (*Fights back the tears as she composes her words*) abuse and negative energy directed towards us, which more recently were also directed at poor Laski caused her an enourmous amount of psychological damage. This when combined with her already delicate demeanor set the wheels in motion for her eventual emotional and mental distruction. It just reached the point where there was nothing that could be done.

I'm not the sort of person who just gives up on anything. But I understand that there is always a point where you have to take a step back from the situation and look at it from an outside perspective. Thats the point where you realise the kindest thing to do, even though it is often the hardest. The point where you have to stop thinking about yourself and act purely for the best of the one in distress.

Personally I believe that everything in the world happens for a reason, you just have to figure out what it is. That is important. For as long as you can

take every situation no batter how wrong. Learn from it and use it to grow as a person. Even though in this case it sickens me to the core of my soul that it was at the expense of one so innocent and vulnerable.

 

The temperature was in the high twenties Centegrade and extremely humid. The sort of weather where you dont feel like doing anything and tires you down. I wasnt feeling well as is it was without the extra stress today. I knew what I would have to go thru over the course of the next hour. Though I pushed that aside and worried purely about the star crossed fate of my companion Laski. She jumped into the car full of excitement about this trip out. She has always enjoyed going places in the car and jumped between the seats like a tornado. A spasm of nausea wrecked the bottom of my stomach and I shed a tear over her innocence. My friend climbed into the drivers seat and I caught her by her harness as she landed on my lap. I cuddled her tight and she sat down with her two front legs resting across my right arm so she could get a good view out of the windows.
We set off towards the nearest gas station to fuel the car for the trip to the vet. My friend talked all the way in a manner of denial to what was happening.

All I could think of was that beautiful warm creature pressed up against my bossom towards which I loved so dearly. I was sat in a daze. Before I could register anything around me I was sitting at the gas station. Being a sunday afternoon it was quite and there was only one other car filling up.
I turned my attention back towards Laski who was looking around eager for a chance to jump out and explore this new place full of unknown smells. We double backed and headed in the opposite direction towards the vets. Nearing our house again my friend suddenly realised he did not have his cheque gaurantee card. So stopped back at the house. While I was waiting for him to return I couldnt help but think about living in a world where even the darkest hour of a helpless creature that all anybody was interested in was getting paid. Then before I knew it we were at the vets. I climbed out the car and got a good hold on Laskis' harness barely able to mutter a word. As we made out way into the vets she was looking in every direction and taking an interest in every animal and smell as if it were the whole world.
The receptionist welcomed us straight into the consulting room and advised the Vet would be with us as soon as possible. The room was small. Two chairs and a small metal table in the middle of the room. The bathroom in my own apartment is bigger. Although the Vet appeared in a couple of minuets it felt like an age has passed. The whole time upto this point my friend was still talking in a way that showed that he was completly unable to accept the grim situation. All I could do was look at him and shake my head. Fighting back the tears was now a feutile gesture. Laski who was usually full of energy and never able to keep still just became completly placid, layed down on the floor by my feet, looking up at me affectionatly as a knelt down to comfort her. My stomach churned again. Maybe she had a moment of understanding and acceptance to her fate? It was as if she made her peace to the whole world and was ready and willing for an end to her suffering. I would like to think so. The Vet talked to me about the circumstances. I felt like I was being cross examanied by a barrister. I just wanted it to be over. My friend was now just trying to talk his way out the enivertable without a plan or idea. Papers were signed while I was asked multiple times if I was sure I wanted to preceed with the 'Euthanasia' I just stuttered 'ah ha' in a feeble way. What was running thru my mind was how

clinical it sounded. Euthanasia, the political way of making muder sound humane. I insisted that I wanted to be there till the end, the Vet seeing how upset I was stated that she was worried I would not be able to cope with being there. I insisted again.My friend at this point could take no more and left the room. Leaving me with my hapless companion. I just cuddled her as if I was trying to give her all the love she would have received over rest of her life in one go. I could not even bring myself to utter a single word from this point. It became like just watching from afar. Like a show on the TV viewed thru binoculers. The Vet took her out the room to prepare the canula. She was only gone with my Laski for 5 minuets, though it felt like several lifetimes. When they returned she had an assistant. 3 of us and a Husky in a tiny room. There was not enough room to manouver properly. She was still quiet and just layed down on the floor, I've never seem her so placid as from when she entered that room for the first time.

There was a nurse either side of her body and I knelt down by her head... Stroking her and holding her as close as I could. She just looked up at me and pressed close. The first nurse who had brought a syringe back with her asked if I was ready. I just nodded, still unable to speak. I watched Laski looking up at me and the plunger slowly being pushed down. I was frozen to the spot. Just holding her. I didnt even realise she had gone for a few minuets. I was just looking down at her wandering how long it would take to happen. The nurse even said its over multiple times b4 it 'clicked' inside my head. I eventually stood up in slow motion. The nurse asked if I would like anything, I just weakly shook my head and tried to manouver myself towards the door. The other nurse opened it for me. They both said something, but it didnt register... I Just needed to be somewhere else.... Anywhere.... Just not there... not now... Not ever.....