I had a dream, re-interpreting it: If one escapes, others kill one. If one is captured, one kills others; in return dieing on the inside.

Today was not to exciting, but good nonetheless. I managed to get some of my GED done and my boyfriend made my favorite dinner in the world, crab stir-fry. It has red peppers, green peppers, baby carrots, white rice, and of course crab! Plus a little seasoning along the lines. Everyone in the house was drinking and celebrating to their new jobs, but I remained sober. Just didn’t feel like drinking and on top of that, I haven’t been hired for any jobs yet. I’d rather wait until I manage to get one and take my celebration down to the bar.

That’ll be the night. I also recommend the next time you go to the bar; if you haven’t already had one, get a “sex with an alligator”. They are delish, and will get you messed up (if you have one to many) just like Jungle Juice. :)

My day was full of driving around grabbing all the applications I could get my hands on. Not a lot of people are hiring in this area, and if they are, it's all part-time work with hours that I would never want to be scheduled for. I've got a couple jobs I'm going for, an almost guaranteed bet to acquire; the Roomstore has clerical positions and maybe I’ll check out this neat secretarial job down the block from where my ‘man-pants’ lives. If I can manage to get a job before x-mas, that’d be a present for myself for sure.
Earlier this week I was very upset because I thought I had lost my ability to find a job and the ability to work on my education. I was thinking too much of the future and the past, instead of the present. My outlook is that you take care of everything one day at a time, and don’t get lost in your thoughts to the point of where you can’t think straight. Slow down, clear your mind, and order things out. It’s a hell in itself. I’ve been there and done that, and would rather never go there again.
“He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.” – Nietzche

    I’m not a blog person, so I’m not exactly sure what it’s all about. Share your life to the world, or just little tidbits? Well, I’ll give you guys a tidbit of what happened Monday morning, maybe that’ll tell you a little bit about me. Maybe each blog entry will tell you a little about me, anybutt…

    Yesterday, at 4 in the morning, my tongue ring decided to fall out. I got it pierced about 3-4 weeks earlier and didn’t expect something like this to happen. Since this is my first piercing, I’m a little nervous. I have no previous experience with this sort of stuff either, so I went by the instructions written on my little 5x4 inch paper. I guess I was lucky when I first got the piercing to not have gone down the path of mutinous infections or timely sicknesses that so many have gone through. That morning though, I was afraid I might choke on it or something, so I’m going to go have it checked out later this week. I might just be freaking out a little bit too much, but really, chocking on a tongue ring would be a crappy way of saying goodbye to the world.
    “Bob, there’s no reason for a timely investigation, see the hole in her tongue?”
    ”Ohhh…what about it?”
    ”Yeah, that…she just choked on a barbell like all the other kids out there.”
    “Darn you’re so smart Dick.”
Maybe I’ll get the barbell switched out to a smaller size and grab some plastic balls. Ha, balls. Ha…ha…

    Anyway, besides that little mishap, Lezzu was the one who introduced me to Kaneva. I hope I can gain new friends and get myself some raves so I’ll be able to play around in the virtual world. I like the environment and controls so far, very friendly and user based.