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So yeah, very soon we're going to be losing another $1000 or so from my moms monthly income because her ex wants out. Mind you, i want him out too cuz he's a mother fucking son of a racist bitch who molested me when i was twelve even if i can't prove it. So once again danie's drama is annoying the shit out of me.

I know she has issues some more serious than others, but the ones i see her freaking out over are not worth getting hysterical over. What's more is that ahe thinks she's being mature and taking care of everyone when she does this. It does not help. I know she's had it rough, but so has most of the world and they don't fall into hysterics at every little thing. The spider thing i'll give her. She's phobic,ok fine. But when we were trying to cheer her up, instead of IGNORING US, she should have used her words like the big girl we know is hiding in there somwhere and said something along the lines of "I'm sorry guys but if i just space out for a minute it'll help me calm down" Not yell at us.

And now she's posted several things on myspace getting mad at us! I love her to death and i will always be her friend, but being around her is exhausting.

Another thing that makes me mad: the day she ran off, she invited me into the chat room and the first thing she says is "I need to get awat from home right now" or something along those lines. Because god forbid your parents get mad when your gone half the night.


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Apr 15, 2007
drama drama drama DRAMA

So. Tonight sucked. I didn't really want to go to the dance but i figured what the hell, it's something to do. I think it was either the five hours of sleep or the pms but i felt so depressed tonight. There's a lot of things on my mind lately so maybe it all just decided to blow up in my face tonight. Regardless of why though(I'll get into that later) it was a terrible night. I didn't want to feel like that, i wanted to dance and have fun, but i couldn't stop thinking about all the things in my life that were upsetting me. Then I find out that danie's freaking out because she's worrying about everyone. To be blunt, lately danie's really been acting like a drama queen. I love her and all but she really needs to tone it down, people walk on cracked eggshells around her. I also felt awkward because Travis insisted that i go to morp with johnny, who is a great guy, but i dated his older brother and he reminds me waaaaaaay too much of my little brother. then there's the whole thing between randy and danie. I have no idea what the specifics are but they're going out now. This is both good and bad but i don't want to talk about why here for various reasons. That's all purely teenager drama. My dad recently told my mom that he had been laid off from his job of 15 years and could not pay child support for a while. He hasn't told me about any of this( mom told me) and that makes me a little annoyed. I can't quite word out why.
My mom isn't sure he actually was laid off though. He recently bought a new house with his fiancee and they've been having trouble adjusting to the budget. The company he works for is fairly large and he claims that the lay off was pretty big. My mom looked up the company and it said nothing about lay offs (apparently info like that is on the net or in the newspapers). So either he was just fired and was trying to save face or he's a total jackass just like my mom's been telling me since i was 5. If that's true, i have to hate him. He gives my mom $900 in child support, my mom only makes about $1500 a month. If he's fucking us over i have to hate him and I DON'T KNOW ANY POSSIBLE WAY HOW TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I DO NOT WANT TO HATE MY DAD. Dad's house has always been my safe place. When i went there in elementary school i could have a break from my mom's mood swings. In junior high i could get away from mostly everything except the way misty treated thomas. Now, everything just sucks in both places. It's not me thomas and dad anymore. He has four other kids and a fiancee. He's setting himself up too. I used to think that my dad was a great dad and i accepted the fact that he was and husband. Now I'm starting to be angry at him because he really wasn't an awesome dad.
I figured out that my mom was human a long time ago. My dad, i worshiped up until the last few months.
It's a known fact that all teenagers are selfcentered so i feel ok with saying that my family losing well over a third of it's income is causing me more stress than danie overcoming a few bad tempers to be with a guy. I don't mean to attack danie, i really don't, it's just that she's my foil for the day. that's all i'm up to writing for now.
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