i've always thought that i would always be alone, that no one would ever understand me.  but now, i think that i might've found that special one, just for me...y'know?  maybe i'm not such a hopeless cause after, heheheahhhaa.....

Well, I'm feeling talkative right now, so I guess I'll tell everyone a semi-secret that really only I know, but have found out over the years.  If you, the reader, have followed what I've said in some of my blogs, you know that I'm only really 17 years old (just turned 17 on November 30th).  But I've found over those 17 years that I get along with girls pretty well, but to tell you the truth, that's as far as it goes.  Oh, it's from no lack of my own actions, but from the lack of affection.  I'm a junior in high school, and I've never actually dated, and I've never had a girlfriend.  Every girl I know or have gone to school with has only thought of me as weird, idiotic, and annoying.  Only now have they been really listening to me, and getting me, but still, there's no connection.  With anyone.  Period.  I've tried to flirt, to say jokes, and lots of other things, but I've come to accept that I will never be loved as a couple loves each other.  Some people hate me, many others think I'm loud, obnoxious, and just plain un-likeable.  This is true even with my friends, whom I've been friends with since the middle of elementary school.  I am unloved, other than my family and friends, and just plain unliked.  But, I've accepted this, and I'll stay my course, no matter WHAT comes my way.  So bring it on world, cause I'm not goin' down without a ****ing (<--self-censored) fight, so either keep up, world, or get left behind         >X-D   >X-)!  Peace .

I'm actually 16 yrs. old, but i thought it would have been smart to put an older age than my actual age, lol....ok, that sentence didn't seem to run together well, but it's morning, summer break, and my brain isn't working all that well right now, so oh well :).  lol.